{"id":672,"date":"2023-11-13T15:40:35","date_gmt":"2023-11-13T15:40:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/?p=672"},"modified":"2023-11-13T15:40:35","modified_gmt":"2023-11-13T15:40:35","slug":"wanting-is-a-rhythm","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/2023\/11\/13\/wanting-is-a-rhythm\/","title":{"rendered":"Wanting is a rhythm"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"fusion-fullwidth fullwidth-box fusion-builder-row-1 fusion-flex-container nonhundred-percent-fullwidth non-hundred-percent-height-scrolling\" style=\"--awb-border-radius-top-left:0px;--awb-border-radius-top-right:0px;--awb-border-radius-bottom-right:0px;--awb-border-radius-bottom-left:0px;--awb-flex-wrap:wrap;\" ><div class=\"fusion-builder-row fusion-row fusion-flex-align-items-flex-start fusion-flex-content-wrap\" style=\"max-width:1248px;margin-left: calc(-4% \/ 2 );margin-right: calc(-4% \/ 2 );\"><div class=\"fusion-layout-column fusion_builder_column fusion-builder-column-0 fusion_builder_column_1_1 1_1 fusion-flex-column\" style=\"--awb-bg-size:cover;--awb-width-large:100%;--awb-margin-top-large:0px;--awb-spacing-right-large:1.92%;--awb-margin-bottom-large:20px;--awb-spacing-left-large:1.92%;--awb-width-medium:100%;--awb-order-medium:0;--awb-spacing-right-medium:1.92%;--awb-spacing-left-medium:1.92%;--awb-width-small:100%;--awb-order-small:0;--awb-spacing-right-small:1.92%;--awb-spacing-left-small:1.92%;\"><div class=\"fusion-column-wrapper fusion-column-has-shadow fusion-flex-justify-content-flex-start fusion-content-layout-column\"><div class=\"fusion-text fusion-text-1\" style=\"--awb-text-transform:none;\"><p>Wanting chewing gum as soon as I get in the car. The right song.<br \/>\nA new pair of pants. A haircut. Lipstick. Seconds. Coffee. My phone. News. Woolies drop. Next episode.<\/p>\n<p>It feels delicious. Like after sorting the thing I want I\u2019ll be good, happy, baseline, satisfied.<\/p>\n<p>Now, I\u2019m practicing hanging back. Being on the other side.<br \/>\nI don\u2019t want anything. Unhook from the impulse.<br \/>\nI\u2019m laughing with my wanting. Nup. Just waiting here being easy. I don\u2019t want it.<\/p>\n<p>Then I can be. Begin. What can I acknowledge that\u2019s already here and forgotten because. Boring.<\/p>\n<p>More aware of sensory input means a more accurate presence. The ability to delight in the simple experience of living life. Reawakening this allows me to be less depleted, less at the mercy of whatever new ephemeral thing takes my fancy.<\/p>\n<p>Whatever else this day has to offer it will be different when I meet it from this state of not wanting.<\/p>\n<p>((Still want everything though!!! ))<br \/>\nAlas.<\/p>\n<p>*Painting by Marcelina amelia\/ Saatchi Art*<\/p>\n<\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":673,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-672","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/672","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=672"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/672\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":674,"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/672\/revisions\/674"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/673"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=672"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=672"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.carynkatz.co.za\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=672"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}